Sometimes you just wish so hard for a magic wand --- and a magic carpet --- to rush to a place to do a thing. If I had those two objects, I would rush to Appawatiskat with hundreds of canvasses, a million brushes and enough paint to fill a swimming-pool. I would magic up a tent and hold 24-hour painting workshops for ever. Art is not the answer to everything but it's a huge step towards understanding and coping with almost anything. Art can soothe your broken heart. Good luck and much love, Appawatiskat. Don't give up. I am praying hard for you.